Friendship

FRIENDS DON'T EXIST FOR ME. NOBODY EVER CALLS ME AND WHEN I ASK ON MSN WHO THEIR FRIENDS ARE AND THEY DON'T KNOW WHO I AM, THEY NEVER INCLUDE ME IN THEIR LIST, EVEN THOUGH THEY TELL ME TO MY FACE I'M ONE OF THEIR FRIENDS. I AM SO SICK OF BEING USED AND TREATED LIKE HSIT. I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM TREATED THIS WAY, I AM NICE TO THEM AND I AM NOT A "CLINGER" OR SOMEONE WHOSE A BITCH EITHER. I HAVE BEEN TOLD I DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE SO MANY TIMES THAT I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF. I AM NICE TO PEOPLE, NOT EVER MEANOR TELLING THEM THINGS TO MAKE THEM FEEL BAD OR "CORRECT" THEM RUDELY, BUT I GUESS I'M NOTHING BUT A BITCH TO EVERYONE, SINCE IT MUST SAY THAT ACROSS MY HEAD TO HATE ME SINCE I'M SUCH AN "AWFUL" PERSON. LIFE IS A JOKE FOR ME, THERE IS NO HAPPINESS FOR ME AT ALL. I CAN NOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE. I WISH TO DIE AND I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF SOON. I POSTED THIS MESSAGE HERE SINCE FRIENDSHIP IS NOTHING BUT A JOKE FOR ME. I CAN'T WAIT TO DIE. LIFE IS NOTHING BUT A FUCKING LIE. YOU CAN'T SPELL LIFE WITHOUT LIE, SO THAT PROVES MY POINT EVEN MORE.